I feel as if I should finally write something happy here since the last two times it's either been me complaining or super depressed me. I actually can't believe how depressed I was when I wrote that last one....I almost feel as if that was a completely different person because I don't feel that way at all anymore. Man depression sure does suck. Anywho, I really want to thank everyone who commented because it helped me get through it. I don't know what I would have done without you. Thank you all so much for supporting me in my time of need <333   
    Tonight I finally gave into my massive amount of urge to draw on the computer again and I bought paint tool sai. I like to call it a little early graduation present for myself. Yes I did have photoshop, DID have. My old computer crashed and photoshop went with it much to my despair. I can't even begin to say how much I miss it. What sucks is since my computer crashed I can't tell it to no longer be associated with that computer so that I could redownload it to my laptop. I could probably contact adobe and what not but I think I'll wait until the newest photoshop comes out and just get that one.
    So to all of you people who constantly tell me to get paint tool sai, you're wishes have been granted! I actually love paint tool sai a lot. It's waaay easier to sketch on than photoshop and considering I sketch drawings (aka don't finish them all the way) around 90% of the time, it works prefectly for me. I was sad when my free trail ran out so to have it again is awesome. I'll be drawing a lot now! yayyyy!!! Drawing on the computer is so much easier than drawing on paper. Alright I gotta go to sleep since it's almost midnight, good night everyone